Not An Epiphany

So I realised that if I was going to wait for a research-based epiphany (see: A letter to myself in six months’ time, when things are likely to not be going as well as they are right now (because generally they aren’t)for every blog post that I come to write, then I might not end up writing too many blog posts.

While it would be nice to only write about meaningful stuff that people from all disciplines/ walks of life can relate to, I’m going to be honest and say: I don’t always have much meaningful stuff to say (see: Mrs Jones).

So here is a blog post about not much at all, other than what I have been up to/ thinking about/ avoiding.

I managed to complete a first draft of my confirmation document while I was overseas visiting family, so I don’t need to feel guilty about taking that much time off (I’m really good at feeling guilty, see: Competitive Busy-ness). All that time away from the lab and scientists was kind of refreshing, but also a bit terrifying… I am so tied up in all this crap! It’s weird to go for weeks at a time without talking about my project or even science, really. As I said to my mother, RE: doing a PhD but being temporarily surrounded by people who don’t understand (hats off to them for finding more interesting things to fill their brains with, really!) and couldn’t, even if they wanted to (none of them do):

“It’s a bit like having a baby, but no one can see it.”

I’m back at work now and waiting on a date for my confirmation, as well as hanging onto opportunities to discuss my ideas with my supervisor, who is tied down with NHMRC grant applications. I’ve been back two weeks but only just bought up the courage to get back into the lab again today. It is not my happy place.

I need to start running western blots too in order to confirm all my data from last year, which I am not looking forward to. I’ve been reading but I know the learning only really begins when you’ve run it and failed at least four times. Which will happen, trust me.

(Why am I here?!)

I’m trying to get organised and go paperless too. I have accumulated a lot of notebooks and none of them are much organised. Also my bad memory makes it hard for me to go back and find anything. Goddamn I love Ctrl+F. I’m attempting to switch to Evernote, in which I am keeping a daily work journal of aims and accomplishments as well as notes on protocols and readings and OF COURSE: a lab book. Last year I made the mistake of being too embarrassed (I know, I’m an idiot) to make notes in my lab book concerning my ideas and interpretations for troubleshooting in case they were “stupid ideas” and someone had to borrow my lab book and *gasp* might read it. As a consequence I have pages of data from experiments but I can’t remember why I did them. As of this year, I will have no shame in writing any of my deepest darkest weirdest opinions/ feelings/ instincts/ ideas in my lab book if there is ANY possibility they could be of any use to me in the future.

Any tips on going paperless?

Any nifty ways you use Evernote in your work place?

Over and out.

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